FUNRUN

I DID NOT BRING BACK FUNRUN YOU DID

IT SHOULD BE IN THE PAST ALREADY IF THERE IS A GENUINE REGRET

REGRET OF TOTALLY DISRESPECTING FRIDAY

REGRET OF USING THE VOLUNTEER

REGRET OF LYING ON THE CR ISSUE

REGRET OF GIVING UP UR NUMBER BUT UP TO TODAY THE INTENTION OF DOING VOLUNTEER IS NOT TRUE

REGRET OF SAYING TO FRIDAY HINDING HINDI NA KITA BABALIKAN

ALL OF THESE BECOME A NO REGRET ONCE YOU ACCEPT HIM AS YOUR BESSY

YOU ADD HIM IN YOUR FACEBOOK COZ NO ONE CAN ADD YOU

YOU ADD HIM SINCE LAST YEAR JUST CHECK ALL YOUR LIKES AND ALL HIS LIKES TO YOU

THEN IT IS CLEARER YOU WANT TO CONTINUE DISRESPECTING FRIDAY, YOUVE DONE NO MISTAKE

YOU WANT TO BE OK AGAIN WITH FRIDAY YET UR D BESSY OF BESSY

IF I DO THE SAME THING TO YOU HOW WOULD U FEEL?

SAME THING WHY U DONT LIKE CHIN TO BE FACEBOOK FRIEND OF FRIDAY? I CALL IT DOUBLE STANDARD

ITS OK FOR YOU U TO DO IT BUT NOT TO FRIDAY, NOW DID U FEEL THE PAIN IF UR FRIDAY?

ITS NOT ANYMORE IF UR JUST FRIEND OR SEXFRIEND OR FUCKBUDDY OR BFF OR BESSY

JUST LIKE CHIN ANY COMMUNICATION IS UNFAIR, TXTING IS UNFAIR, FB IS UNFAIR

FRIDAY DONT WANT ANYTHHING TO DO WITH THE GUY, YOU MADE A CHOICE

PINAGLABAN MO RELASYON MO SA KANYA, I RESPECT THAT

FUNRUN BROUGHT ME SEVERE PAIN JOANNA, U BRING IT BACK NOT ME

I WANT TO FORGET IT FOREVER IF THAT INCLUDING FORGETING YOU THEN SO BE IT

UR NOT THE ONE GETTING HURT DISRESPECTED IN FUNRUN, IAM JOANNA, IT MUST END NOW

YOU MAKE A CHOICE U LIKE TO BE HIS BESSY I SHOULD RESPECT U , U FIGHT FOR IT

NOW I HAVE TO MAKE A CHOICE FOR MY OWN RESPECT SINCE I CANNOT GET IT FROM YOU.

END IS END, BYE



FRIDAY DEL ROSARIO

Christian Rule

Wag mo gagawin sa kapwa mo mga bagay na ayaw mo din gawin sayo....

TO JOANNA

A simple math maybe you can understand more

EXWIFE, for 4yrs wala kami issue sa lalaki
MOM NI ANDREA, for 3yrs wala kami issue sa lalaki
JOANNA, for 3yrs, 4 na lalaki pumasok sa relasyon namin

EXWIFE, for 3yrs na na tayo di ko nakita, naka txt naka facebook, wala communication
MOM NI ANDREA, for 3yrs na na tayo di ko nakita, naka txt naka facebook, wala communication
JOANNA, all 4 guys nakatext, natawagan, naka facebook, nagkita, nagkasama

EXWIFE, mahal ko kaya ko pinakasalan, ako ang may pagkakamali
MOM NI ANDREA, di ko mahal, di na kami nung mabuntis ko sya
JOANNA, mas mahal ko sa lahat pero wala na sa katinuan ang ginagawa sa relasyon

TO JOANNA a simple question

1. Mahal mo ba talaga si Friday? o out of neccessity kaya lang kayo nagkasama?
2. Why mo gusto lagi may 3rd party sa relasyon natin? ano satisfaction nakukuha mo?
3. Ano meron si EXWIFE at MOM NI ANDREA na wala sayo? Ano pa sa tingin mo ang kulang syo?
4. As 24 ilan na naka sex now? 4? 5? ilan pa kailangan mo para makita mo totoo kasiyahan sa buhay?
5. Ako ba may mali kung bakit pumasok ang 4 na lalaki sa buhay natin?
6. Ano kasalanan ko bakit paulit ulit mo ginagawa ang pangbbabastos disrespect kay Friday?

Sa lahat ng tanong, masasagot mo yan ngayong wala na kayo ni Friday. Sana maintindihan mo sa mga blog ko ano mali sayo and as 24 maaga mo sya macorrect para makuha mo totoo kasiyahan sa buhay mo. Nasa puso mo ang pagbabago, if wala admission sa mga mali nagawa mo then mauulit lang muli sya, if tanggap mo mali sayo then i open up mo sa family o close friend mo at humingi ka ng tulong o opinion sa kanila. Di pa huli ang lahat Joanna, naniniwala ako may chance ka pa magbago.

Maybe I serve my purpose, why tayo nagkakilala at nagkasama, God has that reason why nya tayo pinagtagpo, para sayo at para sa akin, alam ko may na share ako magandang values sayo, sana alam mo na tama at mali sa pag aasawa, wala ako ma gain sa lahat ng sermon ko pero i need to tell it and share it with you, wag mo na daanan mga dinaanan ko mali, karma kita i understand that now, why God allow me to go to this path, to know you, para makita ko mga mali ko sa past. Now its you, ok lang to make a mistake, to learn, to gain experience. Pero wag mo na hintayin yung karma, na sa ka relasyon mo sya naman magpasok ng 4 na babae sa relasyon nyo for u to feel d pain na dinadaanan ni Friday now. LEARN, LEARN, LEARN, DI PA HULI ANG LAHAT...



Friday Del Rosario

BULAG

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May iSang DaLagang BuLag Na NiliLigawan Ng BinaTa !
mahal na mahal ng binata ang dalagang bulag dahil bukod sa itoy mabait, napakaganda pa. Ng SinagoT Na Ng DaLaga Ang BinaTa Tinanung Ng BinaTa Ang dalagang BuLag !
BinaTa: Kng SakaLing Ng MakakiTa Ka Na Anung Gagawin Mu?
DaLaga: hahawakan muka mo, dadamhin ko ang bawat hibla ng iyong imahe itatago ko sa aking isipan para mamalagi na ito sa akin habang buhay tapos MagPapakasaL Na Tayo !
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NapangiTi Ang BinaTa !
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1MonTh LaTer NakakiTa Na Ang DaLaga aT Ng MaLaman Nyang BuLag Din PaLa Ang BinaTa !
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DaLaga; Sorry Ayokong MagpakasaL Sau MahaL KiTa Pero Di Ku TaLaga Kayang BuLag pala Ang Aking MapapangAsawa!namuhay na ako sa kadiliman dati at alam kong mahirap..im sorry.goodbye.
nakaupo lang ang binata habang paalis na ang dalaga..unti-unting tumulo ang kanyang mga luha at naibulong na lang nito ang mga katagang...
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"mahal na mahal kita sana maging masaya ka palagi at makita mo ang taong magmamahal sayo ng totoo, ingatan mo mga mata ko regalo ko yan sayo para makita mo ang ganda ng mundo..paalam"
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(A SYMBOLICAL STORY PINAPAKITA KUNG ANU ANG KAYANG GAWIN NG ISANG TUNAY NA NAGMAMAHAL. BABALA NARIN SA ATIN NA INGAT TAYO SA PAGBITIW NG MGA SALITA DAHIL BAKA PAG BINIGYAN TAYO CHANCE NA TUPARIN SINABI NATIN DI PALA NATIN .KAYA)

THE TRUTH

MY EVIDENCE



I send this 2 picture in my blog, maybe someone can see then and hold truth to all my blog, so that I can start to move on already.

THIS IS WHERE SHE IGNORE ME, SHE DON'T KNOW ME AT ALL
THIS IS A WIFE WHO IGNORE HER HUSBAND
THIS IS A WIFE WHO PRETEND TO BE SINGLE
THIS IS A WIFE WHO GAVE HER CELLPHONE NUMBER TO A STRANGER & USE MY VOLUNTEER GROUP
THIS IS A WIFE WHO LIED IN THE CR ISSUE, USE OTHER PEOPLE TO LIE.
THEY ARE NOW GOOD FRIENDS DAW.

FREEDOM OF CHOICE, ITS THE ONLY GIFT I WILL GIVE HER WITH VALUES, ABILITY TO DO ALL THIS THINGS WITHOUT ME.


without facebook, without instagram, just being a dad, manager at work, maybe thats more than enough to move on, if u request for a video just message me here i might post it in youtube.

Friday Del Rosario

MAHAL KITA

MAHAL KITA

Marami beses ko pinatunayan sa sarili ko na mahal kita talaga, simula KARGADOR, hanggang I STILL MISSES U JOEL, up to DATE O EYEBALL O MEETUP (whatever u want to call it, then our Max Restaurant is not a date) hanggang sa painful na FUNRUN na up to now dala dala ko padin ung pain, hanggang sa AYAW KO NA KASI UMASA SA WALA, where all of a sudden everything just ended, my mind, my body, my soul, my heart STOP, sobra na unfair, nag effort ako, nagpasaya ako ng mahal ko, but all I do have no meaning pala sa kanya, maybe may matagal na sya plano since funrun, maybe ito na yung chance na hintay nya, maliit na butas na pde palakihin.

Simple yung argument "MASAKIT KASI UMASA NA NAMAN SA WALA".Ano solution sa sa problema nya? Wag na sya paasahin sa wala? para wag na sya masaktan? para di na sya umasa muli? Stop na? End na natin para di na sya masaktan muli? nasasaktan pala sya kakahintay sa wala? dun lahat papunta solution sa problema nya? I need to understand her, di ako selfish na tao, lhat ng pagtatalo namin may best effort ako nagawa but painfully lagi TOPAK nya kapalit, negative effort, lagi painful one, extreme na ung FUNRUN, masakit pa paulit ulit.

Ina away nako mga frends ko, nakita na nila yung video, wala daw puso, pero mahal ko, I know deep in my heart mahal ko sya, but how to stop all this guys? 4th na eh, wala ng learning. I dont know, ako nga sinabi ko lang add ko c Chin sa facebook ko, grabe na pang aaway ginawa sakin, pag sya OK lng, may tag lang ako picture nya na pangit sya laking gulo na, nabiro ko lang tago kami ni Cute sa Waltermart hanap sya foul ng sobra sa kanya, anak nya nakangiti bigla nagtaka sa sitwasyon. Pag ako may issue grabe away kahit facebook lng, pero sya nakasama in person all 4 guys pero nagpatawad ako, DOUBLE STANDARD, pde sa kanya, di pde sakin.Yet ako yung lalaki, ako lahat sa family ko, bakit ganun?

Andami issue di ko na mabilang, simula xmas new year, holy week, boracay, birthday ko, lahat may effort ako pero she keeps on repeating the same mistake over and over again, liit ng mistake ko kapalit HIGANTENG DISRESPECT, tapos na sana issue kalma na, may baon pa pala putik tatapon sa pagmumukha mo (e,g. boring ka kasex, etc) makaganti lang yung TOPAK, makalamang lang, di pde di sya lamang, ayaw nya yun.

Why ako sumuko? kasi wala ng DIYOS sa relasyon namin, dapat if may Diyos positive parati, with faith, dapat wala batuhan ng putik, walang gantihan, isipan muna FAMILY bago ang sarili. EGO is devil, SELFISH is evil, KINDNESS IS GOD, HUMBLENESS IS GOD, pero wala nako nakitang ganun maliban sa huli, magyayabang pa na AT LEAST, never gumawa ng BEST ACTION EFFORT, FACEBOOK AT TXT EFFORT NA SA KANYA YUN. Kaya I started to hate facebook o txt o instagram, dahil dun nasira relasyon namin.

I STILL LOVER HER, MAHAL NA MAHAL KO SYA OK LANG MAGING TANGA AKO SA MGA KAIBIGAN KO, EH MAHAL KO SYA TALAGA, GINAWA KO LAHAT FOR 3YRS, I NEVER GAIN EVEN A SINGLE CENT, EVEN OF GOOD VALUES, PERO MAHAL KO SYA MAHAL KO FAMILY NAMIN KAHIT DI KAMI LAGI BUO, PERO SANA KAHIT DI NALANG PARA AKIN PARA SA SUSUNOD NYA NA RELASYON PLEASE ABANDON THE TOPAK, THE ME ME ME FIRST, D EVIL VALUES N PRINCIPLE, STOP LYING, STOP THE EGO FIRST SORRY LATER, BABAE KA KAYA MO PAHUPA GALIT NG ASAWA MO, PUT GOD FIRST MAGAGAWA MO PAHINTO NG AWAY AT GULO, NAGKAHIWALAY MAN TAYO PERO DI TAYO NAGSAKITAN, DI TAYO AWAY RINIG KAPITBAHAY, DI TAYO AWAY IYAK C CUTE, IF DI KA NAGHAKOT NG GAMIT OK P SANA TAYO NOW, IF WALA FUNRUN GUY OK PA SANA TAYO, IF WALA BORING KA KASEX OK PA SANA TAYO, PERO ITO NLANG NATIRA WAY TO KILL OUR EGO, MALAMAN MGA MALI NATIN, MA STOP NA UNG 4TH GUY, STOP NA TAMA NA.PATI IMMORAL THING STOP NA JOANNA GINAWA MO NA SYA BEFORE...

PERO MAHAL PADIN KITA, MAHAL NA MAHAL. TANDAAN MO YAN, UR MY LAST, INGAT KA PARATI.I WILL STILL WEAR OUR ENGAGEMENT RING AS A SIGN AND WISH OF GENUINE GODLY CHANGE, NO MORE EGO, NO MORE TOPAK, GOD BLESS..



Friday Del Rosario

IT'S ME MY LIFE

It is a mystery why we fall in love.
It is a mystery how it happens.
It is a mystery when it comes.
It is a mystery why some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails.
You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes, but you will never do anymore than take the life out of the experience.

Just as life itself is more than the sum of the bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body, love is more than the sum of the interests and attractions and commonalities that two people share.

And just as life is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so too, the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift that cannot be questioned in its ways.

Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life - the gift of love will come to you in full flower, and you will take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share.

More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.

When this happens to young people, they too often try to grasp the love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is gift that is freely given and a gift that just as freely, moves away.

When they fall out of love, or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving, they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost rather than accepting the gift for what it was, then moving on.

They want answers where there are no answers. They want to know what is wrong in them that makes the other person no longer love them, or they try to get their lover to change, thinking that if some small things were different, love would bloom again.

They blame their circumstances and say that if they go far away and start a new life together, their love will grow.

They try anything to give meaning to what happened. But there is no meaning beyond the love itself, and until they accept its own mysterious ways, they live in a sea of misery.

You need to know this about love, and to accept it.
You need to treat what it brings you with kindness.

If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.

If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love her, feel honored that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage, do not cause pain. How you deal with love is how you deal with you, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different.

If you fall in love with another, and she falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time.

Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away.

Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in anyway you can. This is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.

The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as a need. They cease to be someone who generates love and instead becomes someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away..

Remember this, and keep it to your heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reasons for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it choose to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do.

Love always has been and always will be a mystery.
Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life.

STEP IN TO MY SHOES

FILL IN MY SHOES

One friend of mine who is a psychologist request me to ask this to you.

1. If u are Joanna will u allow ur bf Friday to be with his exgf in front of you? If no way then why ask Friday if ok lang usap kyo exbf mo?

2. If Friday ask u to help him bringing all his things to his car in front of his exgf will you allow it to happen to you? What will u do? Will u eat ur EGO and do it?

3. What will u do if u read a message from ur bf Friday the he still misses his exgf what u will do? Pls be honest, breakup? Ask his explanation? No need very obvious?

4. What u will do if he honestly say he Friday dated a girl just dinner and watch movies? What will be ur reaction? Ur reaction if he insist it is not a date? ok lang for you?

5. If you assist Friday in funrun and u saw him with a girl with him ignoring u in the finish line while u taking a shot, what will u do? More violent reaction coz u are his wife? Iwanan sya mag isa? Walk out? hiwalayan na? what if Friday say DI NA KITA BABALIKAN TANDAAN MO YAN after funrun? ur reaction?

5. What will u do for a Fridays comment AYAW KO NA UMASA SA WALA when u gave effort to make him happy that day and u make an effort to check u up when ur ok or not? Please be honest deep in ur heart what will be ur reaction?

6. How would u feel if Friday is protecting a girl friend whom already the caused of ur separation before? Same as protecting ur ex husband? Text friend? Facebook friend? Sex friend? Make a rule both of u agree? What is both ok? What is both not ok anymore? ur doing it now.

6. You are strong enough to ask for a cellphone u say bayaran mo nalang monthly, he gave it to u for free, ur not strong enough to ask for money when u sanla ur cp at inaway sya ng brother mo just for that, he doesnt know u need money, he gave 5k to get ur cp, why not strong enough u need 12k form private skul of Cute? Ego always won at you, u allow it to control you. not learning that money is not issue EGO is always an issue.

Psychologist say if what Joanna will do is much worst than what you do then by standard she is normal, a girl will normally react much worst than guys react on those situation.

If Joanna react in defensive mode or lighter action than what you do, either she is lying in front of you? Or pure narccistic protecting her EGO and still insisting its Fridays mistake all along. All Friday do is very small mistake ur emotion make it a BIG issue the result become so BIG out of control already if only the solution is very simple, stop throwing muds at each other, talk when ur calm.

Fridays mistake is very small, in kargador he say to u bahala ka thats a mistake, but the result was HUGE mistake x10 of Friday mistake, for u dont gave ur husband the very basic RESPECT FROM A WIFE, ur blinded by ur EGO, nagyayabang ka sa ex mo o mahal mo padin ex mo, isa dun ang totoong sagot. Still communicating with ur exbf after that is again a mistake, be honest to ur husband, be open if exbf is still txting or calling u, bad if he know without u telling him.

Explanation on u misses ur exhusband is a double lies since u explain it the next day, obviously u misses ur ex husband, he found out again and u never tell him ur purpose right away, be open, tell him everything if u really love him.

Fridays mistake in funrun is telling Sarah she is sexy, small mistake, sana u tell him right away u r jealous, BIG BIG BIG MISTAKE on ignoring ur husband, TOTALLY OUTRIGHT DISRESPECT WHATEVER UR REASON IS, again u never learn how to RESPECT UR HUSBAND, R U BLIND? very bad intention, if u like the guy tell him right away, dont double lie in the CR, double lie in project pearls, since up to now u never go both of u to PP and ur now close as frends. Double disrespect.

Love is pure if for so many years even without a child no issue still u love one another, child is a blessing not a condition on how u love ur husband, same with the wife, AYAW KO NA UMASA SA WALA is a precursor to separation, u want it, u have it, sana harapan nyo nalang pinag usapan, Fridays mistake is nagalit sya agad, he should talk to Joanna personnally, Or if Joanna admit her mistake wait for Friday at home talk to her say genuine sorry, di na sana lumala, pinahaba nyo by batuhan ng putik then sorry nalang next time, maling culture di dapat ganun, if di nyo kaya control EGO nyo stop talking, cool off, palamig muna, pag ok na kita nyo na mali sa isat isa saka kayo mag usap ng harapan.

FILL IN MY SHOES, one character wife or a husband should have, sana lumagay ka sa katayuan ko, if syo nangyari ano gagawin mo? Wag mo gagawin sa asawa mo mga bagay na ayaw mo din gawin sayo ng asawa mo, you have big problems if u have DOUBLE STANDARD, ok lang pag ikaw gumawa, pero pag sayo ginawa nagagalit ka, o mas grabe reaction mo, pag ikaw dapat ok lng wag dapat magalit asawa, then u have EGO problem, then Friday is right all along as the older guy, Maturity can kill your issues, the ability to fight what is wrong and right, the ability to fight ur emotion, the ability that love will still prevail in the end.

In all those BIG FAILURES U MAKE TO FRIDAY that should be a very good test that ur husband really loves u, he gave u a chance, many many chances, he passed with a flying colors, 4 guys yet he forgive u in all of that mistakes, ano pa kailangan mo? FRIDAY THE SAINT? Santo ba need mo? Kahit kipag sex ka sa iba ok lang yun, kahit kipag date ka sa iba ok lang kasi di naman date yun? Meet lang? Eyeball? Kahit ilang beses mo sya bastusin ok lang dapat? Ano ba criteria mo being a good husband? Repeated bastos disrespect mo husband mo dapat ok padin sya? Dapat di sya magagalit? Wala sya karapatan magalit otherwise maghahamon ka na? Lalabas mo na baon mo? Ano ba gusto mo talaga sa isang lalaki?


Goodluck to both of you...

BREAKUP

What I Wish Someone Had Told Me Right After My Breakup
By Eddie Corbano

When you find yourself alone after a break-up, the majority of your prospective problems right after will come from the fact that you are now on unknown, potentially hostile territory.

Like you’ve been transported to another frightening reality.

You feel alone, scared, not knowing what the future holds for you. A whole new range of emotions keep pattering on you, making you not recognize yourself.

The first few weeks are confusing and disturbing.

So, the foremost purpose of this article is to give you strength and hope to make it through this undefined, and uncharted territory at the beginning of a break-up.

I will try to show you what is waiting for you, both the good and the ugly stuff – a map through that dark territory.

So please read carefully. Everything you will read is based on experience from so many who have made it through this, and who have came out as a better version of themselves.

It will help you to get some clarity during this confusing time, where nothing seems to make sense.

Please read on.

A Silver Lining
Yesterday, I caught myself observing my wife while she was reading a book. She has this special, weird way that she holds the book in one hand, and rests her forehand on the other.

I suddenly started thinking about how incredibly lucky I am.

If I could have constructed a woman that would fit best with me and the person I am, it would be exactly someone like her.

In fact, she is even better than I could have constructed, because she is NOT perfect.

Perfection doesn’t exist, and if it did, I am convinced that we would bore ourselves to death with a perfect partner.

Instead, my wife is challenging, constantly testing my boundaries, spicing up my life with her colorful, emotional facets.

In that moment I thought – what would have happened if somebody were to give me this exact picture of her, and her description, back during the very beginning of MY break-up?

How would I have felt if I KNEW that one day in the future, I would have HER by my side, loving me, accepting me as I am, and standing beside me no matter what?

Would my pain have gone away instantly? Would I have been relieved? Would I somehow have changed my way?

The answer is most probably NOT… because break-up recovery is not about sudden epiphanies that have the power to change everything.

We must understand that there isn’t a set of words, a magic pill, or a glance into the future that can heal us over-night.

It is about a process. A journey during which we change ourselves for the better.

The Panic
Right after the split, you feel a numbness, as if something strange has happened, and you are not really sure what.

Unfortunately, this doesn’t last long. Soon you will enter a new phase, and experience sheer, archaic “I-can’t-make-it-alone”, existential panic.

The kind of panic the stone age man experienced when he found himself abandoned and alone, surrounded by wild animals.

It’s an irrational, deep-wired fight-or-flight fear, that makes us do all the stupid things we do… like pleading, calling or harassing our exes.

MORE: Have YOU Made These Mistakes After Your Relationship Break Up?

What you must do, is simply accept this, and understand that this panic is NOT you – it’s just an automated reaction to an existential threat.

After that comes the pain.

The Pain
And for the time being, the pain IS there. You MUST accept this.


By tind
The pain is there simply because the relationship mattered to you. You felt an honest, passionate, authentic, deep-down LOVE for your partner.

And that is a GREAT thing. That’s a wonderful thing.

That means that you CAN feel honest love, that you are capable of believing in someone, cherishing the people that you care most about.

And that is the foundation of every fulfilling, long term relationship.

Whoever becomes your partner in the, (maybe not so distant), future WILL know how to appreciate that… they will be lucky to have found YOU!

My wife isn’t like my ex at ALL. And back during my breakup, I really thought that it would be absolutely impossible to ever find someone again who was THAT compatible to me, like I thought my ex was.

Man, was I wrong.

I did’t even know what was possible. It’s like I had read two pages of the big book of relationships, and thought I knew what I wanted and needed.

So far from the truth.

The No Contact Rule
You can’t always get what you want
But if you try sometimes well you just might find
You get what you need
– Rolling Stones

I know that you feel the urge to contact your ex, to talk to them, to ask them what the hell happened, to just see them one more time.

It’s a normal, human reaction.

But, hold on here – trust me when I say this because I’ve been doing this since 2005 – the truth is, you WON’T find relief in talking to them. You WON’T find the answers. You WON’T find closure.

All you will find is pain and frustration.

I understand that you are hoping to get them back. I understand that you want to stay friends with them so they don’t disappear completely out of your life.

I know all of that.

But you must trust me now, and believe in my expert knowledge, that this is a HUGE mistake. You have to start the 60 days of No-Contact, (join my free newsletter and I walk you through it step-by-step).

If you think that you can’t do that, or you just don’t want to, then you do what you have to do… and see where it gets you.

I don’t mean that in a bad way… some of us simply need to go through this experience before committing ourselves to the No Contact Rule.

Following this rule is THE essential factor IF you want to get OVER your Ex the fastest, and “cleanest”, way possible.

And IF there is the slightest, infinitesimal chance of getting back together again, you will make the best out of it if you manage to re-gain your true-self, and think with your head, instead of your bleeding heart.

This is the first active step you must take on your own.

I can’t make you.

I can show you the way, but you have to stand up and go.

Believe me, I know how you feel. I know your pain. I’ve gone through every single phase of it, back and forth. I know how hard it is to do ANYTHING.

But IF you want to get better, you must be ACTIVE. Passiveness will kill you.

Stand up and fight for your life and happiness!

The Guilt
You’ve made mistakes? So what? Welcome to the club! Are you human, or are you a computer?

I’ve made lots of mistakes. But with every mistake I’ve made, I have also made a step forward in my personal development.

Have I blamed myself for the break-up?

You bet I have. The mere thought that I had been the one who messed it up, was absolutely unbearable.

But you know what? Ultimately it didn’t matter.

Because with time, I’ve made two major realizations:

1. I couldn’t possibly be responsible for the breakup all alone
There are always two people in a relationship who contribute to its well-being, or not. Everyone has needs, and some of them were not met by the partner – this is nobody’s fault.

2. The person I WAS made mistakes
The breakup changed me. I am another person now. I couldn’t have reacted differently, because that’s who I was back then. I learned from these mistakes, and I will never do them again.

Let me tell you one thing, and please read carefully:

There is nothing wrong with you!

Let that sink in.

There is nothing wrong with you!

Stop playing out all those “what-ifs”, and “if-onlys” in your head. They are sucking the energy out of you… energy you need right know.

It’s a game you can’t win.

An Opportunity
You should be open to the notion – even if your pain clouds your judgement right now – that this is a wonderful opportunity.

I really mean that.

You have been presented an opportunity to identify, and investigate, what needs changing in your life, and the chance to CHANGE it.

The reason why you have such difficulties with this breakup, is that there is an issue to resolve. An issue that is most probably standing in your way throughout your whole life, whether you realize it or not.

NOW is the best time to put your finger on this issue, and actively work on it.

The reason why people go through this relationship-breakup cycle again and again, is because they rebound quickly, (or even worse – overlap), and don’t take the time to work on themselves.

MORE: The Relationship-Breakup Cycle

A breakup works quite like a reset in a way, where you CAN choose who you want to become after that. You can re-build yourself from the ground up.

You can be incredibly selfish, do what you want to do, when you want to do it. You can choose to appreciate and enjoy this given freedom.

You can acknowledge that YOU are unique.

There is no other person in this world who has your special combination of abilities, talents, appearance, personality, beliefs, aspirations and creativity.

So treat yourself good, treat yourself with respect. Don’t engage in activities that dishonor that like trying to numb the pain with alcohol, drugs, or casual sex just to “get over them”.

Because it doesn’t help. It helps temporarily, but it will backfire terribly. And you will hate yourself for it….

You ARE unique.

You will learn to love yourself for that.

The Learning
At first you will have no clue about what happened. Absolutely no idea why they suddenly decided, for you both, that this relationship didn’t have a snowball’s chance in hell.

To you, it’s like an alien took them over, and made them do things they would never, ever do.

You will rack your brain trying to figure it out.

I know that you think it is of vital importance that you learn the reasons for your breakup. You think this knowledge has the power to turn things around.

But it won’t.

I know from experience, that at the very beginning, it is quite impossible to fully grasp the dimensions of all the reasons that ultimately led to the split.

You are simply blocked through the pain and don’t have the needed emotional detachment yet. You are seeing the relationship through rose colored glasses that don’t permit any critical reasoning.

You’ve put your Ex on a pedestal.

There are two major insights that a break-up recovery process can give you, (if you let it):

1. Deep level knowledge about yourself – who you are and what makes you tick

2. Realizations about your relationship – how it really was and why it failed

You will learn what went wrong, you will learn how good or bad your relationship really was, you will learn what you can do better in your next relationship, and most of all, you will learn what you want and need in a relationship.

And when you do, you will suddenly understand what I mean by saying that this break-up is an opportunity.

Conclusion
A very old friend of mine, who was homeless for a few years, said to me the following:

“Since I had this terrible experience, and survived, I knew that whatever life throws at me I can handle. I became fearless.”

And this is what I want for you.

After this experience – this break-up or divorce – after you have fought and survived, after you have cried and bled, after this excruciating time, there will be nothing left to fear.

Because you’ve made it.

You won’t be clingy anymore, you won’t be attached and attracted to a partner who is so wrong for you. You won’t ever live a life in silent despair because of an unhappy relationship.

Because you’ve made it.

And you will go out there again, and don’t rest or stop until you’ve found the ONE who is waiting for you.

And it will be right…

I look at my wife and think how glad I am that my ex left me back then. I look at the kids who wouldn’t exist, think of the hundreds of clients that I’ve helped…

All made possible by this one night in September so long ago, when she said she didn’t love me anymore… and my world crumbled.

And look at it now!

BREAKUP PLAYLIST

Already been 2 months since me & Joanna breakup, 2 months never seen her nor Cute her daughter, I be honest I miss them so much, It break my heart when I know that she & the funrun guy are already closed, mybe this is the sign that I need to move on, since I am the one that trigger the breakup, I should realized that 2 months is enough to move on.

I am successful no big fight, no physical hurting, no away na rinig ng kapitbahay, away na umiiyak si Cute. My objective is clear, none to any of these three, even if it will sacrifice the relationship, ask long as none to any of the three, then I'm 50% successful, got my goal, GOD's goal, Jesus way to be a better person, matured one, no overflowing of emotion.

Now my problem is how to get rid of her in my mind? she still there roaming around my mind, hurt by the funrun guy, double whammy, double disrespect, but I need to moveon, deactivate my instagram? deactivate my facebook? even wechat, what about Andrea my daughter? what about my volunteer group? I'm no selfie king, facebook is not my generation, it's ok not to have them, but I have to move on, so that I can focus on my work, focus while driving with my daughter, be happy again, without a relationship.

Can I stick to my promise that she is the last one?? some of my friends say I cannot stick to my promises, for the objective is just to give her a chance? but she is already moving on as 24, now as the older guy I need to find a way to move on, stay happy, genuinely happy? but can I do that when I'm alone? daughter's love is different from Joanna's love, both love but not overlapping, different category. Drinking is just a temoporary solution, chatting the same, the next day still she is on your mind, can someone gave me a better solution to get rid of her in my mind?

September planning to treat Cute to her birthday, but how? either before or after, as long as I can treat her, wherever, just to treat her, make her smile, big one for me, but it needs mother's approval, will she agree? will EGO prevail, will hate still there? I don't know, but I will give it a try, maybe she have a BF then, she already 100% move on, happy for her, maybe same with me she is totally out of my mind (need to get rid all her picture in my house). Hope it does, if she's happy then I should be happy for her, for that is the purpose of the breakup, to make her happy again, genuinely forever happy, with wedding & a baby, I know that what makes her happy. It must happen for her that I would be happy for her.

Maybe if she got a BF that will trigger my mind to move, then my body will follow, maybe if she got married or pregnant with the guy that my mind will set me free, free from burden, free from love from her. Would I love again? maybe no more, I tell GOD after my 2nd relationship (with Andrea as my daughter) that the 3rd is my last, I will fight all EGO, extreme patient so that I can make it work, GOD knows I did try my best, purest effort, but an EGO accomplished GUY will not work with SUPREME EGO girl with no accomplsihment. Someone has to giveup, someone has to give in, eat her/his EGO fight for the relationship to survive, GOD knows I did my best for 3 long long years of patient, but my body give in, my mind give in, my soul give in, maybe only a pure love from her will survive it again, but I don't see it know more, she is moving on, no effort except txt & facebook for us to be OK again, it will not work, for EFFORT is ACT, the act of doing thing for the best of your relationship, not words that lets be OK again, lets do it again, it happen many times, it won't work this time, genuine ACTION after apology, genuine CHANGE, responsibility of a WOMAN not to exchange bad words with her husband, ability to tone down emotion, that LOVE will prevail not just in the end but on the start itself.

Only genuine MATURITY can STOP the culture of FUCK YOU first then SORRY later, it will not work for me, It's not GOD's way for a happy GODly FAMILY, it's very clear it's bad values, bad culture (already hear same bad words from her brother before, may pinag manahan ika nga) I can't tolerate it (I promise to GOD that even ur boring in SEX I will tolerate next time). I like to be what GOD want me to be, a better person, christian person, I have my family mana (mainitin ang ULO) I'm fighting for it since I'm matured enough not to get too emotion, control my temper, complain wiithout EGO, layo sa gulo, iwas sa away, PRAY hard, no more physical fighting, I'm over with it, long long time ago, it must not comeback again, I will make sure of it, it won't happen again for I am in control of myself, I'm matured enough to control my anger, I know that now, In GOD's help I will succeed, alone or not. by GOD's mercy.




Friday Del Rosario

BABY

like Joanne and Friday once we enter into a husband and wife relationship it is normal to built a family, kids and daughters dependent on how many u both can carry or what u earned for a living. There are 3 will, the will of both of you, the science will, and Gods will, for except God, there is limit on everything or there is only much on we can do.

We have been three yrs in this relationship with on and off and we still dont have kids on our own but still happy there Cute on her side and Andrea on my side. We are happy when four of us are together going from one trip to another. Im never been unselfish in my life, to my first family, my current family, at work, to my volunteers and others that cross in my path, its in my blood so ive got irratated if someone is very selfish and concern only for himself, family first.

Prior to our last big fight (not physically) its mothers day so I have to treat her to a comedy bar before that day and dinner in sm san fernando & give a her gift. I thought she is happy and satisfied that sunday. Also prior to that we go to Victory for any another checkup possible science will is IUI. But to my suprise the sperm count is positive meaning i have good sperm count, im OK not like before in other doctor and Obgyne that i have problem. Ive even ultrasound my two egg down under as advice by urologist. I make an EFFORT for us to have a baby, but at last Im OK, maybe the no brief just short work for i try it for a year. Now we can be positive of having a baby.

Monday at work she texted me about Cute tuition fee on a private school and an option to go to public school, I ask if she still have a budget in a private school for what i thought the father of Cute is still giving a monthly allowanc to her, she said her budget is still enough. I only said if ur budget is not enough come to me i will add to support you. Then one out of the blue question she ask thru facebook.

paano kung sakaling hindi parin tayo mag kaanak
Tuesday 12:27pm

Punta lng kmi walter
life goes on di pde mabubuhay sa negative
since ok naman ako then its Gods way magkaron o di magkaron

Paano nmn ako
ano gusto mo gawin ko?
patiwakal
sumayaw sa ubando
IUI

Wala kalimutan mo nlng
ikamamatay mo ba pag di ka nagka anak?
ganun ba feeling?
Diyos ba ako para sabihin sayo cge bukas may baby na tayo
if negative ka di na tayo magkaka baby
pde ka na agad mag decide now
pde na tayo maghiwalay

Its our both conversation, Im not angry then Im just suprise its too personal to ask thru facebook it should be personnal still i compose myself. Maybe IUI is was she like kaya i ask her. This message really turn me angry for it is reaaly unfair for a guy to put an effort and make you happy that weekends.

Hindi nmn dhil s negative ako friday, iniisip ko din ung posibility n ganun,then kung ano gagawin gusto ko lng malaman, masakit kasi umasa n nmn s wala.MASAKIT KASI UMASA SA WALA!!!.


I never go to four doctor ultrasound my egg just because ayaw ko umasa sa wala. When we go to Victory naasa ako sa meron, when we go to 4 doctor naasa ako sa MERON, POSITIVE NA MERON, MAGKAKAROON TAYO NG BABY. But why she is so negative? Why all of a sudden, after happy moments? After all the effort. Maybe she got irritated i never said OK i will shoulder the 12k tuition fee of Cute in private school, ayaw nya mag kusa humingi, she got irritated then TOPAK IS BACK SAME AS WALA KWENTANG AMA AMAIN OR DI NA KITA BABALIKAN TANDAAN MO YAN O DAHIL SAYO MUNTIK NA MAMATAY EX MO, WHEN TOPAK IS BACK she will throw all bad words at you then ask for a sorry the next day. She done that many many times, its her culture, yes its my mistake na PATULAN SYA pero ang hirap on my side kasi nga eto na naman sya throwing a bad foul words sa tao nag effort naman at patuloy nag eefort para pang magka baby. STILL I GAVE THE 12K TO HER THRU A NEIGHBOR.

What should I answer to her MASAKIT NA KASI UMASA NA NAMAN SA WALA.? Masakit sya sakin, foul na sya sakin, why nya ito binabato sa akin, ano uli nagawa ko masama sa kanya? Ang sakit sakit, sana harapan nalang, sana pinag aralan nya muna sasabihin nya, sana nag kusa nalang sya wala sya pera need nya help ko, andali ko naman kausap pag dating sa pera, sana paramdam nya naman na mahal nya talaga ako, wag naman ganun ang sakit sakit sabihan ka ng babae AYAW KO NA UMASA SA WALA, ending ang alam ko lang tanging sagot sa tanong nya, END THIS RELATIONSHIP NOW.

Ayaw ko makasakit, ayaw ko ng away na rinig ng kapitbahay, ayaw ko ng away nadadamay si Cute so I request her please go back home and lets cool off, if patuloy mo padin di lalabanan TOPAK MO then gusto ko na talaga mag hiwalay tayo, again maybe space can remove her TOPAK and realize her mistake, ayaw ko na sa kultura nya ng batuhan muna ng putik kulang nalang mag murahan then bukas nalang mag SORRY, ITS NOT GODS WAY, ayaw ko na talaga. But to my suprise she pack all her things AGAIN FOR SHE IS NOW UNDER THE CONTROL OF TOPAK OR SUPREME EGO, SHES GONE AGAIN INSTEAD OF COOL OFF.

I love her so much, she is my last, or else I go solo forever, make mistake na patulan sya, pero same as before ayaw nya labanan EGO nya, sa amin 2 sya ang lalaki sa relasyon, sya nagpasok ng 1st guy nahuli ko she misses pala xmas season 2nd guy kasama nya when she treated me KARGADOR 3rd guy nakipag DATE sya when im SICK, 4TH guy nabastos na nila ako sa FUNRUN now close na sila nagamit pa PP org.WHEN WILL SHE STOP? ON THE 5TH? 6TH? O LAST NA UNG 4TH AT SILA NA NGA?

I MAKE A MISTAKE, NEED TO GO ANGER MANAGEMENT PARA NEXT TIME

KAHIT SABIHAN AKO BORING SA SEX DI AKO MAGAGALIT
KAHIT SABIHAN AKO WALA KWENTA AMA AMAIN OK LNG IMPROVE KO NLANG BEING A FATHER
KAHIT SABIHAN AKO MY EX IS BETTER THAN YOU OK LNG CHALLENGE NALANG SAKIN
KAHIT SABIHAN AKO AYAW KO NA UMASA SA WALA TULOY PDIN GODS FAITH PADIN

I PROMISE THIS TO MYSELF THAT I WOULD BE A BETTER MAN, A BETTER PERSON, IN GODS MERCY I WILL IMPROVE PERO SANA SYA DIN
IMPROVE OUR KINDNESS AND HUMBLENESS FIRST, HABA PA NG PASENSYA, PRAY HARD, HAVE FAITH, REMOVE THE EVIL CULTURE OF EGO FIRST O UNDER THE CONTROL OF EMOTION, LOVE FIRST, FAMILY FIRST, IN GODS WAY. I NEED TO RELEASE ALL MY STRESSFUL EMOTION THRU BLOG, IM SORRY I KNOW IT IS JUST SIDE OF THE STORY HOPE IT CAN HELP BOTH SIDE, IM NOT PERFECT EITHER I MAKE MISTAKE, IM SOLVING IT NOW, HOPE URS TOO...

I LOVE YOU STILL, MAY FOREVER, DI MAN TAYO SA HULI, MAY FOREVER, U HAVE TO GIVE YOUR BEST EFFORT JOANNA


Hoping my Last Blog

Friday Del Rosario

FUNRUN

Joanna have a good hobby that I want to support & that is doing a FUNRUN. I promised that one day I will come with her to support her. On that day I that I will support her there is already an agreement that we need space for our relationship kasi puro away bati na puro masasakit na salita na nababato it need to stop maybe a relationship rest & space for each other will do correct our mistake. At that time we are in Dasma planning to wakeup 4AM to go to CCP Roxas Boulevard for the FUNRUN.

4am wakeup be her driver from Dasma to CCP. Together with her is Sarah who is our friend in one organization. First time I saw her wearing short so I said "wow you are very sexy" without noticing that Joanne already got jealous. I have no bad intention that day so they started to run 5km I think still the sunrise i waited for them in the finish line. From start to finish I'm taking picture in the FUNRUN (not just driver but a photographer) shot every moments with her running. Thought is will be a few minutes turn into an hour & its sweat coz of the sun showing up already.

I decided to use video mode in my IPAD coz i dont know what time will they arrive. Waiting & waiting & waiting till its more than an hour already & running out of patient & a lot of runner already ending up on the finish line I notice Sarah is arriving on the finish line. I video record her going to the finish line & I congrats Sarah for that. But Joanna is still not there in the finish line but still have to wait for this precious moment for her.

After 2hrs from the starting point they run, 500 meters from the finish line i notice her running so I started to run the video recording on my IPAD, noticing that she is not running by herself but with a guy beside her. Still running on video mode while Sarah is beside me instead of running towards me, they run away from me in the middle & ignoring me till the finish line "A WIFE IGNORE HIS HUSBAND ON THE FINISH LINE AFTER ALL THOSE EFFORT THE HUSBAND GAVE TO HER". Still I'm recording till they passby finish line & still ignoring me till they go to the line to received gifts from the FUNRUN organization. Sarah already confuse why Joanna ignore us yet since napahiya na ako I do dedma dedmahan even in my mind i said WOW bakit sya ganito sa akin??? wala ako alam na kasalanan ko??? why nya ako binastos sa harap ng frend namin by ignoring me??
Still ayaw ko mapahiya so I help Sarah take picture on the showbiz personality on the FUNRUN then go to my car & waited for her. Naisip ko a iwan nalang sya & drive my car & go home to Dasma but I have ethics, I have values, galit man ako di ko sya pde pabayaan o bastusin. I have to wait for her in the car before we go home.

A few minutes she arrived seated beside me, I even show her video I recorded, to my suprise her phone ring it is the guy beside her meaning she gave her number on the guy, her explanation the guy like to join our volunteer group so she gave her number. The guy is looking for her, It's now double irratation, double anger but still I composed myself & drive home. I even promised her we go to Manila ZOO coz its her first time so I need to fulfill her dreams even I'm not OK anymore (the car aircon even brokedown). I'm silent, tour her but in sildent mode, I'm honest I'm not OK, It's unfair.

Arrive at home in dasma I control my anger she sleep i my room I sleep in sala, give her food from Jolibee, I'm still quiet controlling my anger my emotion. When we are both in sala she trigger a communication by saying "Sana umuwi nalang ako sa bulacan kaysa ganito tayo wala imikan na naman". It burst my anger show to her my IPAD run the video & telling her its unfair her treatment on me int he FUNRUN, there is effort, I driver her, been a photographer, tourguide in Manila ZOO why treat me like that??? we shout at each other (same as before EGO vs EGO) she say i also disrespect her by getting jealous to Sarah but I say i have to intention coz I dont like Saran that much & I respect her coz she is there. During shouting match she even say to me "Hinding hindi na kita bablikan tandaan mo yan". I person who make a big mistake still can say such words (She always do that for the 50th time).

Still as a gentleman guy i gave her food for dinner morning we wakeup early to pay the elctric bill along the way she request me to forget what she just say "hinding hindi na kita babalikan tandaan mo yan" I just said the cool off still have to be made because we so have too many anger with each other its not LOVE anymore. At home in Bulacan i show her again the video in the 55" LED TV for her to understand what mistake she had done to me. I embrace her say goodbye before I go to work. Does she learn from her husband KARGADOR treatment???? NO. After that i was able to know that she is lying when she said she waited for Sarah in the CR. Psychologist say its DOUBLE LIE to say because she don't want to have a big issue, it could be that he want more time with the guy so she reason the CR thing that Sarah deny.

After a year the guy in the FUNRUN is now her close frend (dont know if they met or not or how they are closed with sex or without). She even tell me that one day she will do FUNRUN with the GUY & her group. I said goodluck hope she enjoy it. What I notice is that the GUY is the 4th in our relationship & soon there will be a 5th 6th 7th & so on. Maybe di pa sya ready sa tunay na pag aasawa, di pa ready sa tunay at seryoso RELASYON, Maybe kulang pa sya sa pagdadalaga, need pa nya ma enjoy ang PAGDADALAGA kahit may anak na sya. I have to let her go for her to enjoy her LIFE, Maybe pag sawa na sya sa PAGDADALAGA pde na siguro sya mag SERYOSO sa tunay na MAPAGMAHAL na RELASYON, not now, di pa NGAYON, but soon she will, for now I HAVE TO LET HER GO, with her BFF, with her so many frends, or even EX'es, I dont know, but i have to let let go dahil MAHAL KO SYA, MAHAL na MAHAL ko sya. Hope in her part it's also a REAL LOVE not LOVE by neccesity. coz i ReALLY LOVE HER...



NExt Blog is BABY ang title (my last I hope)

Friday Del Rosario

KARGADOR

I have one song that i like for a lifetime & that is the song of Bryan Adams "Everything I Do"

Look into my eyes, you will see What you mean to me Search your heart, search your soul And when you find me there, you'll search no more Don't tell me it's not worth trying for You can't tell me it's not worth dying for You know it's true Everything I do, I do it for you Look into your heart, you will find There's nothing there to hide Take me as I am, take my life I would give it all, I would sacrifice Don't tell me it's not worth fighting for I can't help it, there's nothing I want more You know it's true Everything I do, I do it for you, oh yeah There's no love like your love And no other could give more love There's nowhere unless you're there All the time, all the way, yeah Look into your heart, babe Oh yeah Ohh, you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for I can't help it, there's nothing I want more Yeah, I would fight for you I'd lie for you Walk the wire for you Yeah, I'd die for you You know it's true Everything I do, oh I do it for you Everything I do, darling Yeah, we'll see it through Oh, we'll see it through, oh yeah Yeah Look into your heart You can't tell me it ain't worth dyin' for I'll be there

The title is exact thing that I do because you love someone & you will do anything for the woman you love, here is the story.

Her name is Joanne (not her real name) she is a single mom, met her thru OLX 2011 & we communicate later in facebook till the time we met each other for a dinner in Max Malolos. She is beautiful & sexy & very kind every man would like to be with her single mom or not. Skipping one month of ligawan we become bf gf relationship. She is renting an apartment that time & still dont know if the father of her daughter is still shouldering the expenses. They are separated already since the guy have a family in the USA & she did'nt know till time she got pregnant. It devastated her personally but since the guy have money he was able to manuever easily without being hated by Joanna's family for lying in short arriving from USA they still become husband & wife.

Skipping more months till the time of birth where they are separated already (according to her) she have another suitor from Pampanga who love her so much they become bf gf while she is pregnant with the first (hard to blame the girl for as she say she is in love again while pregnant). From what she say they separate again with the 2nd guy when i think Joanna met his family & from then the guy ignore him for so long so it means his family is not in favor for Joanna. She is devastated again as she say.

Moving forward since she is now my gf & soon to be liv in partner she plan to move to new apartment because of the cost & did not want to return to her family. Since i live alone on my new house somewhere in Bulacan just a few kilometers to her apartment I take the initiative if she like she can liv with me. I talk to her mom & tito & affirm that I like to help her by living with me since we love one another. In my mind there is hesitation since there is a question if the girl really loves me (mahal ba ako dahil kailangan ako o kailangan ako dahil mahal ako??. I decided to push with it & let our future decide. I rent a van of my friend at work & pullout her big equipment(sofa, bed, table, cabinets, etc.) & bring it to my house & by next week other things that fitted to my car (clothes, bags, etc.) together with her & her daughter (less 2yrs old at that time).

At work on the time i will go to her place to get her other things to my car she texted me that his exgf (2nd guy)is requesting to talk to her by going to her place (someone from her family tell the guy). I said it's up to her if she want or not but still I will continue with the plan after my work time 5pm up. When I arrived on site I saw her with her exbf in her apartment with her daughter together inside. I only said can I start getting all her things she said yes. Eating my EGO coz i love her i started to get her things & put it in my car. Several things I notice while getting her things, 1st she did not help me nor the guy exbf too they just watch me while im prespiring & sweating carrying all her things to my car. Maybe i reach the 20th time of back & forth still Joanna is just pointing on things i will carry while the exbf is just beside her watching me with no effort helping me. It started to irritate me not on the guy exbf but on my gf or my wife. She treated me as KARGADOR & no show of LOVE to her EXBF that she loves me. I become a smallest guy on earth humiliated by 2 person whom the one I love so much. Still I eat my ego & just tell her I go to her Mom just few blocks away together with her daughter so that left the two of them in th apartment. I tell her Mom that her Exbf is there talking to one another so I need to stay away so they can talk, the Mom got suprised & like to go there right away to talk to her daughter Joanna (why daw did I allow the two of them only there???) On the act of going there Joanna arrived with a guy i know from my work (they have a business deal to buy internet cafe equipment she have). I did not notice the Exbf anymore so after the business transaction we decided to go to my house & arrange all things in my house properly. Notice why helping her arranging all her things her phone keep on ringing & she never bother to pickup the phone. Already on the 20th ring & going to sleep, I tell her why she dont want to pick up the phone, she tell me the guy is urging her to go to a place somewhere in Malolos so that they can talk, the guy is still there waitng for her. I tell her is if she have no plan to talk to him better silent off her cellphone so that her daughter can sleep well, thanks she oblige. On our first day I did not sleep with her i prefer to sleep in the sala instead in the room coz the phone is still light up due to the guy keep on calling her. The next day morning upon going to work I cook rice & noodles for them without me taking any breakfast, goodbye kiss then go to work. In my mind I like to complain in person but I dont have time so I will txt nalang at work. At work I tell her right away (first time I complain without getting angry & without EGO) that is is unfair what they did to me. She should show to her Exbf that she love me by helping me. She said she dont know how to react that day, as 22 I understand but still need to complain so that not to happen again. What I know is she also dont like me to say "Bahala ka kung gusto mo sya kausapin o hindi" she want me to decide yes or no & no hesitation coz she need my advice as a husband. For me it is unfair but because of LOVE i have to let it go & learned from it. She say sorry & shy on what happen.

What I thought is it over already between her & the exbf. I dont know that they are still texting & calling her reason is because she is the ninong of her daughter. I only caught it while sleeping the cp is ringing (maybe she forgot to silent it off) I'm asking her why she dont to pick it up, she say its her exbf calling her. Really mad i want to get out in our room & in our house. I ask her is it only now or its been long time & only caught it now? she say its only now. It's the first time I complain with EGO, already angry already nakaka lalaki na, it's unfair for he is the 2nd guy in our relationship & I as a guy don't want any 3rd party in our relationship. Usually it's the guy having 3rd party in a relationship but now its the 2nd time a guy in our relationship. It has to end it must stop otherwise it will be a bomb exploding in front of us EGO to EGO with no better result.

If you think the wife already learned from her mistake read my next blog...



Next blog is FUNRUN & BABY. Friday Del Rosario