4am wakeup be her driver from Dasma to CCP. Together with her is Sarah who is our friend in one organization. First time I saw her wearing short so I said "wow you are very sexy" without noticing that Joanne already got jealous. I have no bad intention that day so they started to run 5km I think still the sunrise i waited for them in the finish line. From start to finish I'm taking picture in the FUNRUN (not just driver but a photographer) shot every moments with her running. Thought is will be a few minutes turn into an hour & its sweat coz of the sun showing up already.
I decided to use video mode in my IPAD coz i dont know what time will they arrive. Waiting & waiting & waiting till its more than an hour already & running out of patient & a lot of runner already ending up on the finish line I notice Sarah is arriving on the finish line. I video record her going to the finish line & I congrats Sarah for that. But Joanna is still not there in the finish line but still have to wait for this precious moment for her.
After 2hrs from the starting point they run, 500 meters from the finish line i notice her running so I started to run the video recording on my IPAD, noticing that she is not running by herself but with a guy beside her. Still running on video mode while Sarah is beside me instead of running towards me, they run away from me in the middle & ignoring me till the finish line "A WIFE IGNORE HIS HUSBAND ON THE FINISH LINE AFTER ALL THOSE EFFORT THE HUSBAND GAVE TO HER". Still I'm recording till they passby finish line & still ignoring me till they go to the line to received gifts from the FUNRUN organization. Sarah already confuse why Joanna ignore us yet since napahiya na ako I do dedma dedmahan even in my mind i said WOW bakit sya ganito sa akin??? wala ako alam na kasalanan ko??? why nya ako binastos sa harap ng frend namin by ignoring me??
Still ayaw ko mapahiya so I help Sarah take picture on the showbiz personality on the FUNRUN then go to my car & waited for her. Naisip ko a iwan nalang sya & drive my car & go home to Dasma but I have ethics, I have values, galit man ako di ko sya pde pabayaan o bastusin. I have to wait for her in the car before we go home.
A few minutes she arrived seated beside me, I even show her video I recorded, to my suprise her phone ring it is the guy beside her meaning she gave her number on the guy, her explanation the guy like to join our volunteer group so she gave her number. The guy is looking for her, It's now double irratation, double anger but still I composed myself & drive home. I even promised her we go to Manila ZOO coz its her first time so I need to fulfill her dreams even I'm not OK anymore (the car aircon even brokedown). I'm silent, tour her but in sildent mode, I'm honest I'm not OK, It's unfair.
Arrive at home in dasma I control my anger she sleep i my room I sleep in sala, give her food from Jolibee, I'm still quiet controlling my anger my emotion. When we are both in sala she trigger a communication by saying "Sana umuwi nalang ako sa bulacan kaysa ganito tayo wala imikan na naman". It burst my anger show to her my IPAD run the video & telling her its unfair her treatment on me int he FUNRUN, there is effort, I driver her, been a photographer, tourguide in Manila ZOO why treat me like that??? we shout at each other (same as before EGO vs EGO) she say i also disrespect her by getting jealous to Sarah but I say i have to intention coz I dont like Saran that much & I respect her coz she is there. During shouting match she even say to me "Hinding hindi na kita bablikan tandaan mo yan". I person who make a big mistake still can say such words (She always do that for the 50th time).
Still as a gentleman guy i gave her food for dinner morning we wakeup early to pay the elctric bill along the way she request me to forget what she just say "hinding hindi na kita babalikan tandaan mo yan" I just said the cool off still have to be made because we so have too many anger with each other its not LOVE anymore. At home in Bulacan i show her again the video in the 55" LED TV for her to understand what mistake she had done to me. I embrace her say goodbye before I go to work. Does she learn from her husband KARGADOR treatment???? NO. After that i was able to know that she is lying when she said she waited for Sarah in the CR. Psychologist say its DOUBLE LIE to say because she don't want to have a big issue, it could be that he want more time with the guy so she reason the CR thing that Sarah deny.
After a year the guy in the FUNRUN is now her close frend (dont know if they met or not or how they are closed with sex or without). She even tell me that one day she will do FUNRUN with the GUY & her group. I said goodluck hope she enjoy it. What I notice is that the GUY is the 4th in our relationship & soon there will be a 5th 6th 7th & so on. Maybe di pa sya ready sa tunay na pag aasawa, di pa ready sa tunay at seryoso RELASYON, Maybe kulang pa sya sa pagdadalaga, need pa nya ma enjoy ang PAGDADALAGA kahit may anak na sya. I have to let her go for her to enjoy her LIFE, Maybe pag sawa na sya sa PAGDADALAGA pde na siguro sya mag SERYOSO sa tunay na MAPAGMAHAL na RELASYON, not now, di pa NGAYON, but soon she will, for now I HAVE TO LET HER GO, with her BFF, with her so many frends, or even EX'es, I dont know, but i have to let let go dahil MAHAL KO SYA, MAHAL na MAHAL ko sya. Hope in her part it's also a REAL LOVE not LOVE by neccesity. coz i ReALLY LOVE HER...
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