We have been three yrs in this relationship with on and off and we still dont have kids on our own but still happy there Cute on her side and Andrea on my side. We are happy when four of us are together going from one trip to another. Im never been unselfish in my life, to my first family, my current family, at work, to my volunteers and others that cross in my path, its in my blood so ive got irratated if someone is very selfish and concern only for himself, family first.
Prior to our last big fight (not physically) its mothers day so I have to treat her to a comedy bar before that day and dinner in sm san fernando & give a her gift. I thought she is happy and satisfied that sunday. Also prior to that we go to Victory for any another checkup possible science will is IUI. But to my suprise the sperm count is positive meaning i have good sperm count, im OK not like before in other doctor and Obgyne that i have problem. Ive even ultrasound my two egg down under as advice by urologist. I make an EFFORT for us to have a baby, but at last Im OK, maybe the no brief just short work for i try it for a year. Now we can be positive of having a baby.
Monday at work she texted me about Cute tuition fee on a private school and an option to go to public school, I ask if she still have a budget in a private school for what i thought the father of Cute is still giving a monthly allowanc to her, she said her budget is still enough. I only said if ur budget is not enough come to me i will add to support you. Then one out of the blue question she ask thru facebook.
paano kung sakaling hindi parin tayo mag kaanak
Tuesday 12:27pm
Punta lng kmi walter
life goes on di pde mabubuhay sa negative
since ok naman ako then its Gods way magkaron o di magkaron
Paano nmn ako
ano gusto mo gawin ko?
patiwakal
sumayaw sa ubando
IUI
Wala kalimutan mo nlng
ikamamatay mo ba pag di ka nagka anak?
ganun ba feeling?
Diyos ba ako para sabihin sayo cge bukas may baby na tayo
if negative ka di na tayo magkaka baby
pde ka na agad mag decide now
pde na tayo maghiwalay
Its our both conversation, Im not angry then Im just suprise its too personal to ask thru facebook it should be personnal still i compose myself. Maybe IUI is was she like kaya i ask her. This message really turn me angry for it is reaaly unfair for a guy to put an effort and make you happy that weekends.
Hindi nmn dhil s negative ako friday, iniisip ko din ung posibility n ganun,then kung ano gagawin gusto ko lng malaman, masakit kasi umasa n nmn s wala.MASAKIT KASI UMASA SA WALA!!!.
I never go to four doctor ultrasound my egg just because ayaw ko umasa sa wala. When we go to Victory naasa ako sa meron, when we go to 4 doctor naasa ako sa MERON, POSITIVE NA MERON, MAGKAKAROON TAYO NG BABY. But why she is so negative? Why all of a sudden, after happy moments? After all the effort. Maybe she got irritated i never said OK i will shoulder the 12k tuition fee of Cute in private school, ayaw nya mag kusa humingi, she got irritated then TOPAK IS BACK SAME AS WALA KWENTANG AMA AMAIN OR DI NA KITA BABALIKAN TANDAAN MO YAN O DAHIL SAYO MUNTIK NA MAMATAY EX MO, WHEN TOPAK IS BACK she will throw all bad words at you then ask for a sorry the next day. She done that many many times, its her culture, yes its my mistake na PATULAN SYA pero ang hirap on my side kasi nga eto na naman sya throwing a bad foul words sa tao nag effort naman at patuloy nag eefort para pang magka baby. STILL I GAVE THE 12K TO HER THRU A NEIGHBOR.
What should I answer to her MASAKIT NA KASI UMASA NA NAMAN SA WALA.? Masakit sya sakin, foul na sya sakin, why nya ito binabato sa akin, ano uli nagawa ko masama sa kanya? Ang sakit sakit, sana harapan nalang, sana pinag aralan nya muna sasabihin nya, sana nag kusa nalang sya wala sya pera need nya help ko, andali ko naman kausap pag dating sa pera, sana paramdam nya naman na mahal nya talaga ako, wag naman ganun ang sakit sakit sabihan ka ng babae AYAW KO NA UMASA SA WALA, ending ang alam ko lang tanging sagot sa tanong nya, END THIS RELATIONSHIP NOW.
Ayaw ko makasakit, ayaw ko ng away na rinig ng kapitbahay, ayaw ko ng away nadadamay si Cute so I request her please go back home and lets cool off, if patuloy mo padin di lalabanan TOPAK MO then gusto ko na talaga mag hiwalay tayo, again maybe space can remove her TOPAK and realize her mistake, ayaw ko na sa kultura nya ng batuhan muna ng putik kulang nalang mag murahan then bukas nalang mag SORRY, ITS NOT GODS WAY, ayaw ko na talaga. But to my suprise she pack all her things AGAIN FOR SHE IS NOW UNDER THE CONTROL OF TOPAK OR SUPREME EGO, SHES GONE AGAIN INSTEAD OF COOL OFF.
I love her so much, she is my last, or else I go solo forever, make mistake na patulan sya, pero same as before ayaw nya labanan EGO nya, sa amin 2 sya ang lalaki sa relasyon, sya nagpasok ng 1st guy nahuli ko she misses pala xmas season 2nd guy kasama nya when she treated me KARGADOR 3rd guy nakipag DATE sya when im SICK, 4TH guy nabastos na nila ako sa FUNRUN now close na sila nagamit pa PP org.WHEN WILL SHE STOP? ON THE 5TH? 6TH? O LAST NA UNG 4TH AT SILA NA NGA?
I MAKE A MISTAKE, NEED TO GO ANGER MANAGEMENT PARA NEXT TIME
KAHIT SABIHAN AKO BORING SA SEX DI AKO MAGAGALIT
KAHIT SABIHAN AKO WALA KWENTA AMA AMAIN OK LNG IMPROVE KO NLANG BEING A FATHER
KAHIT SABIHAN AKO MY EX IS BETTER THAN YOU OK LNG CHALLENGE NALANG SAKIN
KAHIT SABIHAN AKO AYAW KO NA UMASA SA WALA TULOY PDIN GODS FAITH PADIN
I PROMISE THIS TO MYSELF THAT I WOULD BE A BETTER MAN, A BETTER PERSON, IN GODS MERCY I WILL IMPROVE PERO SANA SYA DIN
IMPROVE OUR KINDNESS AND HUMBLENESS FIRST, HABA PA NG PASENSYA, PRAY HARD, HAVE FAITH, REMOVE THE EVIL CULTURE OF EGO FIRST O UNDER THE CONTROL OF EMOTION, LOVE FIRST, FAMILY FIRST, IN GODS WAY. I NEED TO RELEASE ALL MY STRESSFUL EMOTION THRU BLOG, IM SORRY I KNOW IT IS JUST SIDE OF THE STORY HOPE IT CAN HELP BOTH SIDE, IM NOT PERFECT EITHER I MAKE MISTAKE, IM SOLVING IT NOW, HOPE URS TOO...
I LOVE YOU STILL, MAY FOREVER, DI MAN TAYO SA HULI, MAY FOREVER, U HAVE TO GIVE YOUR BEST EFFORT JOANNA
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